A Wife's Biblical Submission

I just signed up for an online bible study I found. It is called A Wife's Biblical Submission. I am excited about this study. Not only am I going to learn more about being the best wife I can be, I am also going to meet other women that hold their positions as wives important. I am a SAHM and Wife. I am on my second marriage. I have 3 boys ages 11-16 and my husband has 1 boy-20 and 1 girl-19. I was raised in a home where my Dad was married several time and non of his wives were submissive. (My mother passed away when I was 2) All my Dad's wives were disrespectful and rude. They had smart mouths and they were manipulative. I grew up this way and learned this behavior. I have been married twice. I know that I acted in ways that I am not proud of. Those are not the reasons the 1st marriage didn't work, but i know that they didn't help the situation. Although I grew up in a home that wasn't the greatest example, I always new in my heart that my attitude and behavior was wrong. I always wanted more out of my family life than what it was; I just didn't know how to get it. I always wanted to be a mother and a wife from the time I was a very little girl. I never wanted anything more. So when I married the second time to a completely different kind of man I just knew that my dreams were going to come true. I was going make a wonderful, happy, loving home where everyone felt secure and safe. Everyone would love being there and my children and husband would rise up and call me blessed. WRONG! Although I married a wonderful man, we had problems. Of course, I started feeling as if I had made yet another mistake when choosing a husband and stepfather for my 3 children. After a couple of years, we separated and life was unbearable. I had failed again! It was then that I picked up my bible and started reading it. I mean REALLY reading it and praying to God to show me what went wrong. Well, what he showed me was not what I expected, and I didn't like it one bit! I was a bitter, disrespectful, manipulative, ungrateful nag who did whatever she wanted! OUCH! To make a long story short, I spent the next year reading and praying that God would change me. I stopped asking him to change my husband. I learned how to put things in God's hands and stopped trying to do everything myself. It took a year and 3 months, but my husband and I are no longer separated and I have committed myself to learn everything I can about being a Godly wife, mother, and woman. I was thrilled when I was searching the CWO Blogroll and found a link to this study.